Woosah Wednesday usually revolves around relaxation, taking a breather, and savoring moments of peace. However, today, I want to take a different approach. We’ll still enjoy a soothing song, but let’s dive deep into why we sometimes need a break. I don’t know about you all, but this particular song has resonated with me since the very first time I heard it. Even if you don’t fully grasp the artist’s intended meaning, I believe we’ve all found ourselves in this state at least once or twice.
I tried to drink it away
I tried to put one in the air
I tried to dance it away
I tried to change it with my hair
I ran my credit card bill up
Thought a new dress make it better
I tried to work it away
But that just made me even sadder
I tried to keep myself busy
I ran around circles
Think I made myself dizzy
I slept it away, I sexed it away
I read it away
Those lyrics hit hard because I’ve tried to escape from myself countless times. Just like the artist, I resorted to drinking, smoking, changing my appearance, shopping, working tirelessly, sleeping excessively, seeking physical comfort—anything to avoid facing the real underlying problem. But eventually, I reached a breaking point. I found myself crying without reason, consumed by sadness, and easily angered by the slightest provocation. I grew tired of evading myself and made the decision to confront the person I had become. And let me tell you, it was a wild ride. During this journey, I discovered something I’d like to share with all of you: YOU CAN’T RUN FROM YOURSELF. No matter how hard you try. You can alter your external appearance through weight loss surgery, a Brazilian butt lift, or any other body modification, but deep down, you will always be you. You can relocate to a new city or even a different country, but you’ll always carry your true self with you. No amount of external change will fix who you are on the inside. It’s hard work, believe me. When you finally muster the courage to vocalize all the thoughts and emotions that have been tucked away, it can lead to gut-wrenching, ugly cries. But don’t be afraid, because as much as we dread dealing with our feelings, facing them allows us to embark on a fresh start. It’s as if the universe is saying, “Okay, now we can begin the real work.”
Let me share a story with you. There was a young lady I used to follow on YouTube who documented her entire weight loss journey. After shedding over 150 pounds, she posted a tearful video. She had various reasons for crying, but one of them revolved around the damage she had inflicted upon her body. She couldn’t believe she had allowed herself to reach that weight, and she felt that her body would never fully reflect the immense effort she had put into her transformation without resorting to surgery. At the time, I couldn’t comprehend why she would focus on that minor aspect when she had achieved something truly incredible. However, now I realize that while she dedicated herself to healing her physical appearance, she hadn’t addressed the turmoil within. She hadn’t confronted the underlying issues that had contributed to her weight gain. Personally, I have experienced a great deal of childhood trauma related to my weight. I’m currently working on understanding my relationship with food because I firmly believe that it will help me conquer the battle of the bulge once and for all.
YOU are the biggest project you will ever work on. It’s the most important job you’ll ever have. And YOU have to stop taking it for granted. Don’t postpone it for another day or convince yourself that you can escape, because no matter what, you will always be there, waiting. You can’t drink you away, or smoke you away or sex you away. You have to open up and face yourself. Trust me, YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!
Love, Sunshyne